About A Donkey

A Case for Test Screenings

As I'm in post-production for my second feature (About a Donkey), I've been reflecting on post-production for my first (Summit). There are a lot of differences between then and now, largely related to my skill and experience as a filmmaker and the unique conditions under which each film was made. (Though there are similarities too, like who my collaborating editor is and the (lack of) budget for both projects.) But the biggest difference I've noticed is my strong desire to share the rough cut of the film with a broad audience before locking picture. 

Four years ago, I honestly didn't see the point of test screenings. I understood why people do them from an objective standpoint. But, to me, it kind of felt like pandering or like it would just result in a bunch annoying comments about what was yet to be finished with the film. I did show it to a few people, of course -- those who worked on the project or very few other filmmakers whose opinions I trusted. But I felt that getting audience opinions wouldn't mean anything because I had a vision (and a limited budget that left limited options) and I didn't need outward input clouding my perspective. But I later realized that my aversion to showing it to a wider audience was more rooted in insecurity than practicality. Part of my desire to keep objective eyes off the film was because I knew a lot didn't go as planned in production, and I wanted to maintain a bit of a bubble around it so that I would feel compelled to finish it and deliver on what I had promised people. I suppose I feared that getting enough potentially lukewarm reactions would be discouraging in a way that would rob me of my motivation. (It's important to note that due to budget constraints, we had only 3 people working on the film in post-production (one person even did everything in terms of sound, including the score), around full-time jobs. The film was in post for a year and a half.)

That decision not to share (through not only picture lock but also through color grading and sound mixing) was a mistake, though. After my experience of screening Summit for an audience, I slowly started to see the value of test screenings. I may have been keeping it under wraps because of the big things I couldn't change. But when I screened it for an audience, I would cringe realizing there were little things I could've changed if I had just shared it and seen how they were interpreted. (I'm including a list of some of those things at the bottom of this post, if you're interested.)

As a director, it's definitely important to have a vision and follow your gut, but we're making films for an audience because we want to share a story that presumably is meant to say or affect something. So, while it's just as important to make choices and feel confident in those choices, I believe you should also make sure that what you're trying to say translates to your audience. I find it interesting that we workshop our screenplays like crazy, but there's this kind of auteur arrogance about the final directed product. Since I started running IndieWorks (which I started after I made Summit), I've realized this more and more. I often see films that are so obviously too long or contain shots or moments that are independently beautiful but don't serve, and sometimes even detract from, the story. And I often say to my programming colleagues, if only someone had told them before they locked picture -- or maybe, if only they had asked and been open to that kind of feedback. Sometimes films are so personal or the choices made all the way back in the screenwriting process have been with you for so long, that you simply need someone to help you see through fresh eyes. And from my own experience and what I see daily screening submissions, I wish more directors were as collaborative in the post process as they are building up to it. (Side note, test screenings and cultivating a broader, more informed perspective on your work before you lock it are especially pertinent if you are not an individual of a marginalized group of people but are (rightfully) choosing to be inclusive in your work. You'll want to run your depiction and choices by individuals who do identify with your portrayal to make sure you're capturing authenticity and empowering voices rather than perpetuating stereotypes.)

In my more recent work, I've been much more open to feedback during post-production. I believe I've always been a collaborative director, both in pre-production and on set. But I feel I would often go into the edit married to what I originally wanted it to be rather than letting it become something new. Even when working with other editors (which I mostly do), I was still fairly tied to the script or the modifications made to it on set.

However, my last two shorts, I edited myself. And ironically, I've always said I prefer not editing my own stuff so that I could have a fresh perspective on performances and pacing; but it was through editing my own work, specifically my latest short "Enough," that I realized I really needed to deviate from my own script. After playing around with options and feeling like some things weren't translating when all assembled together, I eagerly started showing rough cuts to people -- people I trust but still people outside my usual small circle and more in my target audience. I checked my ego and actually relished in hearing interpretations, even when they weren't my intention. Though I didn't end up following every piece of advice, I took it all in and allowed it to affect the way I see the film. I earned a stronger perspective on what I wanted the end product to be. In fact, hearing from a diverse grouping of people confirmed some things I had been feeling; I gained the confidence to throw out an entire sequence from the script that we had shot. Originally, the film was meant to cross cut between three characters before they are brought together. Instead, I had it cross cut between two before shifting the narrative to the third. The substance and purpose are still there, but the execution has changed for the better.

Between this latest experience and the rewatching of some older work with an audience recently, I've grown to fully accept that, generally speaking, the film that was on the page simply will not be the film that is edited, which will also likely differ from the film that was shot. Even when it's a writer/director, or in my case, writer/director/producer/editor, the vision and execution will and should change along the way. I now embrace this process and appreciate how the viewer's experience informs the work. This shift in perspective and willingness to be more vulnerable and less precious has been beneficial and helped me grow as a filmmaker -- which for me is the goal, to always be growing and becoming a better, more effective visual storyteller. 

We're only in the very beginning of post-production for About a Donkey, but I'm already looking forward to and planning our first test screening. In this first rough pass, I'm making the choices I feel are right to convey and elicit what I'm going for. But I'm also keeping flexibility in mind. I'm looking forward to asking an audience if any given joke lands or if a line or moment feels too longwinded or abrupt for the subtext underneath. I really just can't wait to consume diverse experiences of the film to make sure it's as strong as possible while accomplishing what my collaborators and I want it to. I'll, of course, keep my vision and preferences in mind, but I'll also listen and be open to finding creative ways that could possibly better execute that vision.

-Christina 


Some of my observations after releasing Summit, many of which I could've realized from test screenings before release:

I'm gonna spoil my film a bit here, so skip this whole section if you have any intention of watching.

  • A moment that pains me every time I watch the film (which is lately never unless I have to for some deliverable reason or if it's screening and I need to attend), is one in which a character is insanely searching the house for someone or some evidence of someone after the death of one of the characters. His character insists someone is in the house and then storms off ripping the place apart. The last thing he checks is a dresser, pulling out all the drawers before slamming his fists on it in frustration. There were lines scripted immediately after that, that referred to there being no one and no clues in the house. The actor dropped the section of the line about clues (this was a particularly stressful production day for everyone and we all struggled and had to make creative sacrifices). In post, I was so concerned with the technical things wrong with the scene and also certain aspects I felt were lacking performance-wise which I was trying to fix in nuanced ways, that I overlooked a very logical flaw. I assumed (really hoped) people would infer that he was mad with grief and just searching for any minuscule sign of someone hiding in the house. But when the film first screened in front of an audience, many people in the audience laughed when he was looking through the drawers. (A viewer from a later screening specifically tweeted about my movie and mocked "stupid characters in a horror movie searching for people in tiny dresser drawers.") In hindsight, yeah, if you're not onboard with his crazy erratic behavior, if you're not going along with his grief, if you're a skeptical viewer, or even just a super logical one, it is pretty silly that he says he believes a killer is hiding in the house and then searches in spots only mice could fit. A test screening would have allowed me to see the way it was perceived and found a way to cut it or cut around it. I was too married to the intention and didn't have the distance to have an objective perspective on the execution.

  • There are two POVs in my film, one when a character goes to pee in the woods and gets spooked by hearing cracking branches around her, and one when two characters have sex and are being watched by someone unseen. I was definitely playing with the POV trope as alluding to the killer in horror films. The first POV scene was, in hindsight for the viewer, meant to be symbolic of said character cracking in her own mind -- like her need to consume & kill was coming back even though she was trying to suppress it. But, after screening it for an audience, I realized that literally no one got that symbolism. I was trying to ground it in reality with a certain hint of surrealism. But it blended too much with reality for anyone to read into it. It apparently just read as a weird (possibly poorly directed) moment, not as a clue. I wish I had known that while there was still time to heighten it. And then the second POV, very few people interpreted it as a POV at all. There was no heavy breathing, maybe the camera wasn't shaky enough, maybe the audience just wasn't expecting for the film to go in that direction. I don't know because I didn't get a sampling of feelings. It's very possible I would have kept it as ambiguous even if I got feedback that stated it wasn't translating as a POV, but I still would've loved to know how that moment was being interpreted just for the context of the choice I was making before I locked that choice.

  • There are lines in the film that directly reference obscure horror movies and pretty much tell you who the killer is while still making sense in the context of the conversation. Only hardcore horror fans ever picked up on those. I was definitely playing with a lot of references in the film, trying to achieve the duality of being enjoyable for horror fans and non-horror fans alike. But I never did see how the film played and was interpreted differently by those different targets until it was done and out there. In post, I was always unsure of whether or not the clues to what the film was really about were too subtle or not subtle enough. I was making a lot of choices while attempting to look at the film as if I didn't know what the twist was to see if I was treading the line effectively. But I could've answered my questions if I had been less precious about protecting the twists and my choices and, ultimately, my ego.

  • And beyond the horror clues, a unifying factor of viewing the film was definitely supposed to be the commentary. There's stuff embedded in it regarding gender and race tropes in horror films as a reflection of gender and race expectations in real life. I was also going for a bunch of subtle commentary on how people use each other in relationships (romantic and platonic) to validate or appease ourselves. I found that while some other filmmakers and a more analytical subset of my audience got the the general commentary, most viewers did not. I had to accept that most people won't think deeply about the intention behind something when it's alluded to but not overtly stated; and while I may not necessarily care whether or not those people get it, I do want my vision to be effectively communicated and consumed. Along our festival run, I had to contemplate whether or not the film and the story worked independent from the commentary enough to encourage rewatch from people who wouldn't immediately pick up on the subtext. But this reflection of mine was long after the fact when the film was done and when there could be no revisiting of the execution. In hindsight, I feel I could have balanced it better with all that in mind. That said, there are people who enjoy it as just a slow-paced, character-driven, horrific story with no sense of the intended commentary. Some others enjoy it largely with the commentary in mind. Some just hate it, and it varies whether or not that's in spite of, in ignorance of, or because of the commentary. Some are just bored and confused by the film and wouldn't even watch long enough to notice the commentary. I accept and appreciate all those things now. But the point is, I feel I could've made stronger decisions if I had allowed them to be more informed decisions.

Donation to The Trevor Project (Seed&Spark update)

Hi everyone, 

We've started post-production and will have updates on our progress soon. But just sending a quick update to let you know that we made our promised donation to The Trevor Project today.

You can see below the final cash received from this campaign.

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We lost about 5% of cash raised to platform and credit card transaction fees, and a few people whose cards were declined never got corrected; but thankfully we had some loans of equipment from friends and a lot of donated food from family. So, we were not only able to make our film on the intended budget, but also follow through with donating to this important organization that saves lives. Thanks to you, this film will have a positive impact in many ways. 

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Thank you,

Christina, Kelsey & the team

That's a Wrap! "About a Donkey" Final Weekend Recap

This past weekend was our last of principal photography for "About a Donkey!" We managed to shoot a 105 page feature in 12 days with a $20,000 production budget (and finished on budget)! It was my idea to do so and I felt confident we could do it, but I'm sort of shocked we actually did. (When I have more energy I plan to write a blog post about how we did it.) This last weekend was extra special because it was all about our donkey, TG, played by Cinnamon. (We did some live streaming from set on our Facebook page; I recommend you check it out if you weren't following along live.) Cinnamon & her mom Susie came from Little Brays of Sunshine (of Donkey Park Inc.), an organization that rescues donkeys (Cinnamon & Susie would have been slaughtered for meat) and trains them as therapy animals -- taking them to nursing homes and/or inviting people to join them for peaceful walks near their park Upstate. 

I mentioned in a previous update that it was important to us that we find our donkey through a reputable source that gives the animal(s) love and care. So I'm so grateful that we were able to partner with Steve Stiert and Larry Futrell of Little Brays of Sunshine and gain more attention for their cause and the mission to rescue and care for an often dismissed animal.

The donkeys arrived early Thursday morning. I spent the day getting to know them and preparing Steve for what the shoot would be, while also prepping for directing the three days ahead. Some of our crew arrived that night, but most arrived Friday morning. (Shout-out to my mom, Marlene, and stepdad, Jay, for loaning us their home & allowing us to temporarily have donkeys in their backyard - also to my mom for everything she did/does for me and the production (the cast & crew would especially like to shout out her cooking)). 

Unfortunately, Friday was a rainy day. We had shot part of an exterior scene that took place that same day in the film the weekend before and it was overcast, nearly drizzling; so in terms of continuity, it worked better that it was raining rather than a bright sunny day. But still, the rain added a bit of stress to the shoot. We did make our day, knocking out 9 pages in 10 hours. But coordinating everything was a bit of a struggle throughout the day. In the film, TG just has to be a donkey doing her donkey thing. I very strongly wanted to avoid having her actually "perform," where she'd be forced to do anything she wouldn't naturally do. And since donkeys seem to mainly just eat and stand around a lot, having her stand as we set up shots around her seemed perfectly fine. But the rain made it a bit difficult. It was our first day shooting with her on set (and my first time shooting with an animal in general), and we were still learning how long it'd take to get her and Susie in and out of their shed; meanwhile Steve & Larry were learning how long it'd take us to set up shots. Because of this, there was one part of the day where Cinnamon and Susie were standing, just waiting, in the rain for a few minutes that I'd like to take back. Steve & Larry were with them, as was some of our crew. But I think we could have coordinated it better to keep them in their shed until right before Cinnamon was needed. This day in particular was when I most felt how stretched thin I was, as the director and main producer on set. I was the only one really familiar with the scheduling and timing, and had to act as liaison for making sure the donkeys were set for any upcoming scenes while also trying to direct the actors and production as a whole. It was a learning experience, for sure. Overall, no harm was done. But it's something I'll remember for my next production (where I hope to not be wearing quite as many hats again). Regardless, I'm proud we can say no donkeys were harmed in the making of this film, even if they did get a bit wet on our first day. 

See behind the scenes of the day:

And check out these exclusive Stills from our raw footage. 

Saturday was better. The rain stopped and we didn't have to do any moving of the donkeys. The day was largely devoted to getting breather scenes for the film - just of Cinnamon doing her thing: grazing, getting treats, going on walks, getting brushed. We had a scene where neighbors come to visit TG. So, my family came to play those neighbors and gave Cinnamon a bunch of affection. It was sweet. The main challenge was framing Susie out because those two are inseparable and there's only supposed to be one donkey in the film! We only had to shoot 4 pages, of no real dialogue, but it still took an 8 hour day because we were regularly waiting to get the perfect light and/or wanting to give Cinnamon downtime when needed. 

See behind the scenes of the day:

And check out these exclusive Stills. 

Sunday was our last day on set. It was finally a sunny, Spring day, which worked really well -- not just for morale but for the narrative because we shot the scene where TG is first brought home to the family. (The only downside was that the birds around us were making their enjoyment of the Spring weather loud & clear, as well.) As I said, Cinnamon's role in the film is largely just her naturally being a donkey. But this one scene involved some "acting," as in hitting marks - two marks to be exact. Tim (the father in the film) brings TG home, introduces her to the family in the backyard and then brings her to the shed he bought for her. Cinnamon needed to be led to the first mark and then to the shed. After two days of working with her, we realized that the blocking would largely be determined by how she chose to plant herself. I'm glad I decided to commit the entire 8 hour day to this 6 page scene because, while lighting and setting up wouldn't/didn't take much time, we knew that it being the only scene where the actors had to act around Cinnamon it would require some experimentation -- plus, my focus in particular would be very split between usual production duties and those associated with the donkeys. We decided the best approach would be to shoot Cinnamon's coverage first, see what we got from her and then work everyone else's around that. It's definitely the scene where we got the most backup coverage compared to others because we wanted to frame out Cinnamon as much as possible (to compensate for continuity errors like which way she's facing or if she decided to bend down to eat at any given line from take to take) while still making her presence in the scene fully felt. We had some bloopers of Cinnamon just not walking when she was supposed to or sticking her butt in front the camera (it's kind of a miracle in hindsight neither donkey ever backed into the camera). But overall, she nailed it, as did the cast and crew. I'm really excited by all that we accomplished together. I'm happy that the team enjoyed spending the weekend with Cinnamon & Susie, and that we were able to take good care of them. And I'm so grateful to Steve & Larry and the rest of the Little Brays of Sunshine team for taking a chance on our little indie production and being part of this film. I truly believe everyone involved will be proud of the finished product. 

See behind the scenes below:

And check out these exclusive Stills. 

After we wrapped, we toasted and celebrated; and then participated in this silly, cute video Steve came up with.

We're eager to schedule our wrap party for later this month, and then plan a trip up to visit Cinnamon, Susie, Steve, Larry and all their donkey friends sometime soon. (Be sure to check out their organization and support or join in their walks if you can!)

We're diving into post-production this weekend and will keep you updated along the way! 

-Christina

"About a Donkey" Third Week of Production

We got a ton done over the weekend and I'm so proud of what we accomplished. It was our first time shooting outside, since it is officially Spring. Thankfully, the rain during last week washed away the remaining snow. And although we had to contend with a bit of drizzling and temperatures in the low 40s, the overcast weather resulted in some beautiful footage. 

On Friday, we shot a scene in a car (courtesy of our AD Matt's brother), scenes outside and inside the news station where Burgh works (aka my apartment building), and a scene outside a prom venue (also my apartment building). It was the first (and only) day we had Gwen Albers on set, playing local TV personality Lisette. We managed to knock out 15 pages in 12 hours. Aside from the usual annoyance of constant NYC noises to contend with, it was a surprisingly smooth day! (Shout-out to friend & filmmaker Michael Day for posing in our fictional Morning Program poster with Lisette and appearing in the background of a scene!)

See behind the scenes of the day:

And check out these exclusive Stills from our raw footage. 

Saturday was a fun one. We got to throw a senior citizen prom. It was a 12 page scene with 8 characters, multiple extras, and a huge venue to dress and manage. It's a funny & sweet scene that I was excited to dive into and am happy with how it turned out. That said, this is the day I most felt our budget constraints and the (too) many hats I wear. We originally planned to shoot this scene over two days; giving us one day to fully dress and block the scene and get wider shots including the extras, and then spend day two with the core cast and chunk of dialogue. But an actor conflict came up for next weekend, forcing us to move something planned for this Friday to last Sunday. This meant having to get everything done for prom in one 10 hour day (which included two meal breaks). I had to throw a bit of our shotlist out the window and make some creative sacrifices. The producer in me took precedence over the director more often than I wanted. That said, we made our day, the performances are excellent, the location looks beautiful on camera, and we got everything we need to give the scene life. I'm really grateful to the crew that made this day possible! (Shout-out to my cousin Lauri and her friend Kenny who secured us the Lynbrook Fire Department event space.) Also, on the plus side, since we moved what was meant to be this Friday to last Sunday, we now have more time to devote to our donkey next weekend! (More on that later.)

See behind the scenes of the day:

And check out these exclusive Stills. 

Sunday was a busy but super productive day, as well. We had less coverage to worry about even though we shot 3 scenes with 6 actors in 3 locations. In total, 9 pages over 10 hours. (Shout-out to actors Sarah Haruko and Ricardo Manigat, and one of our 1st AC's Diana Molina, who we wrapped this day. And extra shout-out to Ricardo whose baby girl Colette was born over the weekend!) We first shot a really funny scene between Annie & Cassie outside Annie's picture house (shout-out to my cousin Lauri, again), then 2/3 of a scene that involves the donkey (the rest to be shot next weekend) in the woods outside my extended family's house (shout-out to Joan & Larry Berger), and then a really sweet scene that I can't say anything about right now in my mom's backyard around the shed (shout-out to my mom and stepdad Jay, plus Jay's friend Jim who helped him build said shed). That shed will be in full use all of next weekend when our donkey, Cinnamon, is on set (with her mom Susie in tow). 

See behind the scenes below:

And check out these exclusive Stills. 

This weekend is our last of principal photography! Friday's not looking too great for us in terms of rain, but fingers crossed the weather holds up and gives us warm, overcast (but not wet) days all weekend for our exterior donkey days! Be sure to follow on social media if you're not already because we'll be live streaming lots of Cinnamon & Susie on set!

-Christina